That moment when you feel blanketed by imposter syndrome as you read about another Ph.D. candidate you know who published yet another paper; you know that you have at least two papers you could revise and submit to journals, but you can never seem to find the time for various and often obvious reasons...
That moment when you decide to look up job openings; you find a listing for a position at a nearby school. They are looking for someone who specializes in the areas that YOU actually specialize in (both in terms of experience with classes you've taught, and the subfields integrated within your dissertation). Big downer-- you would have to have Ph.D. in hand by Fall 2015. Oh well.
That moment when you have a mixture of emotions about all these things, because you have an incomplete paper draft hanging over your head; a dozen papers and presentations that need to be graded before Christmas; you just want to take a break and enjoy your family. Oh wait, you actually DID end up taking the last couple of days to run a ton of errands, but you still need to clean the insane mess of your house before family comes over next week.
That moment when you finally just say-- I need to take it one day at a time, and just try to set these goals-- for after the first of the year. I'm just going to do what needs to be done and enjoy this Christmas and New Year! I'm going to enjoy making new memories with my family, because that is important.
That moment when you decide to look up job openings; you find a listing for a position at a nearby school. They are looking for someone who specializes in the areas that YOU actually specialize in (both in terms of experience with classes you've taught, and the subfields integrated within your dissertation). Big downer-- you would have to have Ph.D. in hand by Fall 2015. Oh well.
That moment when you have a mixture of emotions about all these things, because you have an incomplete paper draft hanging over your head; a dozen papers and presentations that need to be graded before Christmas; you just want to take a break and enjoy your family. Oh wait, you actually DID end up taking the last couple of days to run a ton of errands, but you still need to clean the insane mess of your house before family comes over next week.
That moment when you finally just say-- I need to take it one day at a time, and just try to set these goals-- for after the first of the year. I'm just going to do what needs to be done and enjoy this Christmas and New Year! I'm going to enjoy making new memories with my family, because that is important.
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